Entry: another F...u...c...k...ed up day Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Well Today's been yet another fucked up day. I got a whole hour of sleep since my last post. Went to sleep around 7 and got woken up 5 minutes latter by my moms bitching. When she left at 9 I fell asleep but only for a minute since My brothers girlfriend's little brothers kept calling over and over, then some people called for my mothers husband and by the time my cousin called at around 12:30 I was ready to bash my head in with the fucking phone. I finally got to sleep at around 1 and then my brother and all his people where being loud and woke me up around 2. About an hour latter I decided to go with my mom and her boyfriend shopping and I also took my flute and violin to try and sell them back to the place I bought them from (Fuckers didnt buy them back because they know their shits junk) and then after about 2 hours we got in the car and I got one of my Light migranes. I was ready to jump out of the car to end my pain. after we hit the last store on the way home Stone Sours "Bother" came on. Yet another one of my lifes theme songs. the words make me think of how much my life suxz at the momment. My real Dad thinks I hate him, I don't though... My brother and his girlfriend are annoying me with them always having sex and taking baths together in my moms house, I mean come on their 16. And my bro seems to want my mom to kick me out and not pay me back my money. I also didnt get my slipknot CD today becausemy mom needed my mney but she promised me I'd get it tomarrow and A new CD case that holds 300 CD's since I'm letting her use my room, borrow my money, and helping her with out giving her trouble about it.
I guess right now I feel used, unloved, an alone. I'm so confussed... I can't seem to figure out what exactly it is I need to do to change my life... I want to go on but it seems so hard. And today Jay told me he was mad at me. I guess Deez Boyfriend told him that Dee said I told her Jay was talking shit about her. Thats far from true I havent even talked to Dee. And Jay has never said one bad thing to me about Dee. And he knows me and Dee are friends so if he was talking shit I'd be the last person he would tell. But fuck it. I tried to call her and get her side of the story but she wasnt home and didnt call me back. I give up. I use to really like Jay But I dont know anymore, he seems like he only wants to talk to me when hes bored and I dont wanna be used anymore. Maybe I'll quit talking to everyone I know... Well thats all for right now. PEACE OUT!!!!
Aira_Draven May 28, 2004 07:49 PM PDT hey Hells Angel I posted the name of the CD along with its rating. The CD is Called "Slipknot (Vol.3 The subliminal Vereses) and thank you, I am a girl but you are right I do need some one in my life that would make me a little more stable. :) :) :) take care.
Hell's Angel May 27, 2004 09:41 AM PDT Allright Dumbass back again obviously im not too bright through your first entry on the board I obviously mistook you for a guy srrry bout that never expect men to look beofre they leap or as the expression goes we dive in head first unfortunatly. But judge us none the less .
Hell's Angel May 27, 2004 09:34 AM PDT Yea up from maine. i thought it was this crap about being in maine that made life crappy but readin ur page made me realize you can't fuckin hide from it, this shits everywhere.. Hey bout the slipknot cd what the hell is its name ive heard a couple of their songs before and liked duality so im gonna try it out. You sound like you need something stable in your life get a girl and hold on to her shell keep you alive even if you dont wanna be :f... Hells Angel check u latta
