Hello everyone, yup I think I'm going insane. Today started out as a normal boring day for me, life going the same. Woke up around 1:30 p.m. Went with my mom to help her friend Master Dave set up His new Tang soo do class building, however I was very interested in the fact that when I went into the bathroom it smelled like a bird or something died in the air vent... he really should get that taken care of. But then I just came home and spent the rest of my day Watching Fuse Tv which is like MTV but they play mostly Rock/Metal music videos which is kick azz not to mention this chick from a show on there called Uranium is soooooooo fucking beautiful, I think her names julia or something. Anyways a song came on from Eve 6 called "Inside out" its like really olf from 1998 or something, and it happened to be a song that I wanted to remember the name of for the longest so I was overly happy ya know? Then after I got out of the shower I went into my room and jammed some story of the year and blink182. I decided since there was nothing else to do, I would Pull out my trusty Feng Shui Tarot deck and do a love reading for myself. I was kinda expecting a bad card, but instead I got The Empress upright which is a suuuuuuuuuuuuppppppppppeeeeerrrrrrrrr good card. It means my love life is getting better and that the results will be way better then I am expecting. That Kind of makes my day... I mean for the first time in a long time I actually have some thing to give me a reason to go on, A big what if... I dont know the cards are almost always right for me, so I will put my trust into them and leave myself open for some good luck, I mean I think I should have some good luck now... I have done nothing but try to please everyone around me who I love, my friends and family if you will, I havent done anything to hurt anyone in my life, and if I have hurt someone it was in selfdefence or because that person got me to my limit in the anger Dep. I wouldn't intentionally hurt someone because I know how it feels... Well maybe my life will start heading for the better... PEACE OUT!
LaTTeRZ,
Aira Draven Mental Patient Number: 420666